On the way home from QC today, I was really in a bad mood. It was so hot, I had just about 2 hours of sleep in the last 30+ hours, and my standing in Math was so not good. Then the bus that I rode was really hot, like, the aC wasn't working properly and the bus was almost full so I didn't get a good seat. I almost decided to just ride the next bus but it would leave 40 mins later so instead of wasting time I just settled for the seat beside a woman with a 2 yr old boy on her lap. The boy kept trying to touch me with his shoes, which were really dirty, and of course I kept on removing his foot from my lap, bag, wherever he decided to put it. The woman was making very minimal effort to keep the boy from kicking me, and mind you I was using a white bag and wearing white shorts so you can just imagine the effect of what the boy was doing with his shoes. Then the aC. Shoot. Two aircon thingies are allotted for 2 seats, so each passenger gets control of one. I moved the one closer to me to my side, and the woman looked at me in a bad way and stroked her son's sweaty hair as if to tell me, "my son's perspiring how cruel of you to take the aircon" but what the heck, she already had one facing her and her son, what was I supposed to do? I really really did everything in my power to stop myself from telling the lady to just drop dead. Gah. Really, she didn't even pay for her son's fare. If she wanted to get a big space for the two of them, then she should've paid for her son too. I was well within my rights when I moved the aC to face me, as well as when I moved the kid's shoes from my WHITE shorts and WHITE bag. I tried to think of the situation as a test of how kind I can be and how long can I be patient still just to stop myself from telling the woman how stupid her actions are. Then again, is it really about how I act? I really think that the situation taught me, not patience or kindness, but that there are many selfish people out there who do not act within their rights and who do not think of how they are becoming nuisances to the people around them. I mean, while I was watching her, in my mind I was able to devise countless ways where she could hold her son comfortably and not be a bother to me, and all of us were getting sweaty already since that was around 2pm and the bus' aC was not really working that well, and I paid for my seat. I just hate how situations like this seem so unfair, like, I'm the one who ends up looking selfish when for a fact I was just practicing my rights and she was going beyond hers tas nak ng siopao siya pa titingin ng masama sa kin.

sir ernesto adorio (math17- college algebra and trigonometry)
*si tatang. haha. di ko siya maintindihan magsalita, though mabait naman siya. wala akong natutunan sa kanya kaya puro self study lang talaga ko. kawawa kaming mga studyante niya pag departmentals. huhu. pero mabait naman siya, kase pinatake parin niya ko ng exam kahit 1 hour late na ko. haha.

ma'am winnie monsod (econ11- markets and the state {lecture} )
*starstruck. :) kinilig talaga ko na siya naging prof namin sa lec. haha. she's very witty and funny. techonologically challenged siya, haha. i remember one time, may powerpoint presentation siyang ginawa, tas hindi pantay pantay yung font, so di magandang tignan, tapos sabi niya sa min, "mind you, i tried so hard to make them equal, but they kept on going back to different sizes." hehe. her love for the country is very evident too, but she doesn't force her beliefs on us. after econ11, i learned to love the country more. and i realized how important econ really is, as she promised at the beginning of the sem.

ma'am pinky abellada (econ 11- markets and the state {discussion} )
*kapatid ni kris aquino. oooh. hehe. she's very humble, she relates well to her students, and she makes econ easier for us. like, she makes equations that are easier to remember, she cites examples that involve us or her kids which make topics easier for us to understand. nakakaaliw isipin na kapatid niya si kris, na yung prof na nagdidiscuss sa harap namin ay kapatid nung babaeng nagdideal or no deal. hehe. at anak nung mama sa limang daan. kilig hehe :)

sir bong revilla look alike (mbb1- biotechnology and you 2nd part)
*prof sa second half ng mbb1, social, ethical, and legal issues in biotech. astig kase he's really kind at environmentalist din siya so his passion for the subject is very evident. tas ang gwapo pa ng mata niya, ala bong revilla haha di ko na tuloy maalala name niya. he gave me a 1.25 sa part niya, kaya lalo siyang gumwapo. :p

ma'am monje (mbb1- biotechnology and you 1st part)
*nakakaantok. hehe. but she's very cute. matanda na eh pero ang cute cute niya, pwera nalang pag dna ligase protein chorva chorva na ang sinasabi niya, inaantok na kase ko nun. hehe. pero mabait siya, kahit mababa binigay niyang grade sa kin. huhu.

ma'am acido (philo1- philosophical analysis)
*ayoko siya. wala kong natutunan. gah. sayang ang 3 units.

ma'am heidi abad (cw10- creative writing for beginners)
*i like her. she's very open minded and she always amazes me with the way she reads and interprets literature. plus she's kikay and i love her shoes. hehe.

sir mandigma (math100- introduction to calculus)
*i like him better than sir adorio. nag eexplain siya ng maayos, magaling. di ko lang talaga magets. :( pero okay siya, because he really wants us to pass the subject.

sir gerry lanuza (soc sci2- social, political, and economic thought)
*yes! dahil sa kanya ay nagustuhan ko si marx. hehe. at tumindi ang aking faith. :) i so love this prof because of his ever unstoppable motor mouth. he knows sooooo much! discussions were never boring. napakabaliw ng prof na to. di na nga namin mabilang kung ilang p*tang*na, u*ol, at kung anu pang mga mura ang sinasabi niya bawat meeting. every UP student should go through the lanuza experience.

sir reuel aguila (hum1- tao at panitikan)
*tuwing meeting sa hum1, nagiging intouch ako sa realidad na napakarami ko pang hindi alam sa mundo. astig din tong prof na to kase ang dami niyang alam, ang galing niyang magsulat, at ang galing niyang magturo. di ko alam kung ilang beses na nanalo ng palanca award to, basta bilib talaga ko kay sir reuel. astig pa long hair kahit 50+ na siya. hehe. kaso nakakahiyang magkamali sa recit.. based on experience.. "di mo alam? singko!" hehe. after hum1, i learned to love the country more.

sir daj (pe2- walking for fitness)
*dinrop ko to. haha! pero mabait naman ata si sir daj. ok naman siya nung pinasign ko dropping slip eh. tsaka alam talaga niya pinagsasabi niya.

ma'am iona (geog1- places and landscapes in a changing world)
*i like her. siguro dahil bata palang siya kaya gets niya kami. at ang dami niyang gimik sa class, nag picnic pa nga kami nung last meeting. tas kapampangan din siya. la lang. hehe. mabait siya, magaling din siya magturo, di boring. :)

ma'am diokno (eng10- basic college english)
*i like her too. kahit kuripot siya sa grade. :( at pag kinausap mo siya ng tagalog eh parang wala siyang narinig. hehe. mabait naman siya at kahit mejo matanda na eh tinatry parin niya kaming magets. and she really knows her subject very well, talagang igguide niya kami through our papers na sangdamakmak. hehe, di naman. matututo ka talaga under her.

ma'am herrera (bio1- contemporary issues in biology)
*madali ang bio dahil sa kanya. hehe. masarap tulugan, di naman niya mapapansin. mejo di ako enjoy sa mga kwento niya, puro about sa... whatever. recommended parin, kase madali. at marami din naman matututunang chismis about bio. :)

Butterflies in my stomach again. Man, I don't know why, in the midst of my busiest days, thoughts of you still come to mind.

Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
I see the passion in your eyes
Sometimes it's all a big surprise

Cause there was a time when all I did was wish
You'd tell me this was love
It's not the way I hoped or how I planned
But somehow it's enough

But now we're standing face-to-face
Isn't this world a crazy place
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

All of the nights you came to me
When some silly girl had set you free
I wondered how you'd make it through
I wondered what was wrong with you

Cause how could you give your love to someone else
And share your dreams with me
Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see

Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

like a roller coaster ride, i'm in for another adventure. :)

and shallow as it seems, i'm okay even if i know that the ride won't last long enough to reach the loops and twists.

because simply moving forward is exciting, when it's you that i'm with.

I don't want the school year to end. Or, I want it to end, but I still want to have the same subjects next sem. Haiiii. I don't want any BA or Econ subjects. I just want GEs. I don't want to adjust to 5 new sets of classmates anymore. I hate it how there's no block assignments in UP. Every sem, every subject, a different class. Just as I am getting comfy in the company of new classmates, the sem ends. And another one starts.
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Moving on to less depressing topics.. (hehe)
I'm home early now. I attended only one class today, Soc Sci 2 (8:30-10:00). We had no Geog1 because our Prof had a conference thingy to go to, then I didn't attend Math (like it would make a difference if I did. I'll just study later so I can catch up on Monday) and there's also no class in Eng10 to give us time to research for our position paper. So there, after that mentally exhausting Soc Sci 2 class (discussion about Rorty- Postmodernism + kilig moment haha save for another post), I went to PH228A and found out that there'll be no class, so I decided to skip Math and rode the Pantranco jeep, went down at Philcoa, rode the Cubao Ibabaw mini-bus, didn't see Victory Liner (I was playing with the baby seated in front of me) so I just crossed the overpass and went to Five Star. Then when I was at the footbridge I saw that Victory was just a few meters from the overpass. Tanga. Dumaan na kami doon ni Den, di ko pa naalala. Haha. So, there. On the way home, they played the movie of Regine and Aga. Yung si Anya Catingcad (?) and Andrew Castro, president ng Unilever si Aga tas si Regine may delivery business. Haha. Grabe sa daming beses ko nang napanood yun sa cable eh memorize ko na, natetempt pa nga kong mag recite ng lines kaso nakakahiya dun sa katabi kong pogi, baka kala jologs ako (na totoo naman talaga haha). Tas nagtext si Ma punta daw ako kina Lolo, nagtaka ko bakit di niya ko susunduin? Hmpf ever pero ayun, nagcommute nalang ako, tas andun si Sean! Haha. Ang cute cute talaga ni Sean! Tawa tawa pa siya, andun siya sa walker niya tas ampogi pogi talaga niya. Sayang di ako makapagpost ng pics. Anyhoo, ayun, kaya pala di ako nasundo ni Ma kase nagkasunog dun sa Laundry. Well, di naman talaga sa Laundry, dun lang sa tabi, eh malapit na daw, kaya tumawag na sila ng bombero. Ayun, naayos naman, thank God di umabot sa min. Tapos, sinundo na ko ni Ma kina Lolo, tas dumaan sa Bank of Commerce tas muwi na. Pupunta pa ng Pulilan sina Ma, pero di na ko sumama kase tinatamad na ko. Haha. Eto ang mga tasks/requirements/exams na kailangang pagdaanan before I can finally say, "summer!"

>Hum1 report (written and oral)
>Bio1 exam
>Soc Sci2 final exam, reaction papers
>Geog final exam
>Eng10 position paper and revised concept paper
>Math 4th long exam and finals

naks. ang konti. sarcastic mode. haha. di pa nga complete yan, baka magdagdag pa dearie profs. nyhoo, keri yan! haha.. :)
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LSS lang ngayon:

"if i could fall
into the sky
do you think time..."

i'd rather walk alone
than walk with someone
who won't help me up when i stumble
who won't wait for me if i slow down
who won't be patient when i need to rest
i'd rather walk alone
than walk with someone
who won't notice the details
who won't listen
who won't share a common goal with me
leave me
i'd rather walk alone.

1.FONTANA
-anak ng pusa! :( sana, sana, sana. pramis eku maging kj keng highlight na ning overnight. haha.

2.DISNEYLAND
-(im crossing my fingers...) kahit yung sa Hong Kong lang! Please! haha. asa. sana sana sana... kahit di na ko makahawak ng snow, makita ko lang sa personal si Mickey. haha.

3.MCDO STO.ROSARIO (or anywhere really, with acts people)
-halu nini! along with acts people... eta pa lulwal grabe it's been so long. tinangkad na ku and all, eyu naku akilala kanyan keng sobrang growth spurt ku, sigi kayu.

4.HAU
-for reasons i won't divulge. this is no secret anyway esp to dha and company. haha. :)

haha.. yan muna for now.

Trust His Heart

All things work for our good
though sometimes we can’t see how they could.
Struggles that break our hearts in two
sometimes blind us to the truth.
Our Father knows what’s best for us;
His ways are not our own.
So, when your pathway grows dim,
and you just can’t see Him,
Remember He’s still on the throne.

God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don’t understand,
when you don’t see His plan,
When you can’t trace His hand, trust His heart.

He sees the Master plan.
He holds the future in His hands.
So don’t live as those who have no hope.
All our hope is found in Him.
We walk in present knowledge,
but He sees the first and the last.
And like a tapestry, He’s weaving you and me
to someday be just like Him.

God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don’t understand,
when you don’t see His plan,
When you can’t trace His hand, trust His heart.

I'm now here at home at Diamond Subdivision Balibago Angeles City. In front of the PC, with aching muscles. Yesterday was our Geog1 trip to Subic, cheers! The departure from AS Steps was on 6am, blech. So I had to wake up at around 4:30am because I really take long in the bathroom, and I still had to fix my things and all because I will go home here in Angeles when the bus from Subic to QC passes by San Fernando. So there, I don't really remember the exact itinerary, I just want to complain about the long long long hike. It was the Pamulaklakin trail, I think, or mountain or something. Anyway, aside from that the other places that we went to did not really cause any threats to my life. I just got a really bad sunburn and who knows how I'll look like on Monday. The trip, over all, was okay. The fun part was when we were at Royal Dutyfree in Subic and some of my classmates and I went to this Korean store and bought ice cream sandwiches that really tasted good, then we bought shake afterwards. Talk about dessert overload. Then around 5pm we left Subic and when we were already in San Fernando, I went down along with my Prof and her friend (my prof's from pampanga too, San Fernando). My that was the embarassing part. I had no idea how to commute from San Fernando to my home sweet home. Gaaah. And all the time that we were walking she (my prof) was asking me if I will ride the jeepney to Angeles or Dau. And I was like, "..." "..." cause I really had no idea. Hahaha. Then
she accompanied me to the Sn Fernando-Dau terminal and I was worried sick, I'm really tanga when it comes to directions and commuting and stuff, even if Nini and Wins will say otherwise (adventurous lang ako sa Manila kase may taxi dun, in case i get lost). I have to, like, go through the experience for more than 4 times for me to get the hang of it, and experience is what I do not have when it comes to commuting from Sn Fdo (well, I guess I do if you count that one friday when Den and I commuted together, but I didn't really become aware of what we are riding and where we are riding because I had someone knowledgable about the place with me. hahaha). My prof was like, "eka ba mibabanda san fernando?" and I just blurted this lame but nevertheless true excuse, "mag-Rabbit ku pu kasi," and she just laughed at me when I didn't know what to ride. Haha. Then there, I rode the Sn Fdo-SM Clark jeep, and when it reached Clark, I really didn't know what to do. I just went along when most of the passengers went down near the c-point terminal, though some stayed and I guess they went to the SM Clark parking lot. Again, I'm really tanga when it comes to directions and stuff, I didn't want to ride the jeep all the way to SM because the only time I go there is when I am with my sisters so Ati Tay is driving, or when with parents so someone's driving. And when I go there with friends I just follow them, again not really being aware because I don't feel the need to be as they know the way. Hahha. Ang alam ko lang sakyan dito yung C-point from Balibago to Holyfam oldsite. And back. Mejo na rin yung Manibaug, syempre nung sa holyfam New Site, pero di na rin naman counted yun. Di rin ako marunong sumakay ng Marisol. Gah. Hehe. So anyway, when I reached home I wanted to kiss the ground, but my mood turned sour as I realized that it was BROWNOUT! Tae oh! haha.. ang init, ang lagkit ko na, amoy na kong 8 years old na 5 oras naglaro sa kalye, tapos wala pang ilaw! grr. Tapos yung sa harap namin, may ilaw sila. May generator kase. And guess what, yung generator na yun galing pa sa min, yun kasi yung trabaho ni Papa. Pa-rent, sell, repair, and whatever ng mga electric chorvas and generators. Tas kame wala. Hmf. Anyhoo, nagbarbecue nalang kami nina Ma, Duds, and Ati Tay sa kanto habang pinagkukwentohan ang Simple Life season 2, haha. Whatever.